I’m going to tell you the truth, because honesty seems to be lacking a bit in this world.
I balled my eyes out when we left Pearcedale in Luxi on Jan 26th to drive around Australia. The weather was miserable and so was I.
I was confused.
I had no idea whether it was the right decision to take off on a road trip around Australia for 7 months. I’d come so close to getting a job, James and I just completed University and Christmas was a beautiful whirlwind of family and food. Then it was over and the reality of camping for 7 months hit hard.
Poor James didn’t know what to do with me that first night, every little thing he said like “look there’s an aeroplane flying over-head” set me off. “Gosh I’d rather be on an aeroplane going overseas than sitting here freezing my bits off in the bush!” I was thinking.
I’d like to say that after day 1 I realised we were on a trip of a lifetime. But that would be a lie. And I’m not here to market my life as all peaches and cream. In truth It took me a good couple of weeks to stop thinking “what if we…” or “should have…”
I continued to stay in the loop checking what everyone else was up to online, researching overseas places we could have gone to, and adding up how much we were going to spend on our Ozlap. It’s not that I don’t appreciate the amazing opportunity to travel. Don’t get me wrong, I feel guilty about the life I can afford to live compared to so many. But I live with a constant fear that time is forever running out. I always have to justify that time and money have been spent wisely, with not a second or cent wasted. It’s a hell of a lot of pressure to put yourself under and I don’t recommend it!
It was going back home for a week in Feb that really changed my attitude. After driving up and down the East Coast we popped back by Melbourne to attend a couple of business events and catch some family birthdays. I realised we had already seen so much that people were so interested in hearing about. But more importantly we had become so far removed from the trivialities that can quickly fill our lives when we’re in the rat race. When we said goodbye for a second time I was happy. It finally felt right. I shared in James’s excitement to explore WA and NT.
From not wanting to leave to not wanting it to end. The past 5 months have been the most amazing journey! I have come to understand and appreciate Australia and her breath taking landscapes. It’s hard love out here but every hike, tent set-up, and long haul drive has been 200% worth it! My dreams have come true in the waterfalls of Kimberley, coral gardens of Exmouth and sand dunes of Cactus.
So let go and let it happen. Don’t sweat the small stuff! If it’s meant to happen it will, embrace the opportunity. Stop thinking “should have” or “would have” and think “I did” and “I will”.
See clearly what matters.
The journey begins in the moment you follow your heart (Adele Basheer)
Lots of love,
Loopey Lauren XX